So I have decided to make some goals here today - BEFORE NEW YEARS! HA! Imagine that. I have stumbled upon a lovely blog that the author is doing the shred - you know the 30 DayKillYourselfthatIDoNotKNOWHOWIWILLSURVIVE workout? Jillian Michael's hosts it - I am going to post all of the details here tomorrow -AFTER I take some pictures. YES I am going to take photos and track the progress. It will be ugly I know - It will NOT be fun - BUT I am determined to get back ME!
Oh MY! I cannot believe how long it has been. I have thought a lot about what to post - I have been on a journey of my own. I cannot begin to describe all of the things going on right now - but this I know is true - God is near - He hold me up - He surrounds me. I will overcome all that is in my way. I will climb these mountains with His help. Most of this is self-inflicted. I have come to realize the many faults I have. I have come to realize that I am not perfect and cannot continue trying to "be" perfect or look perfect. I do not have a perfect house, marriage, children, job, family, body, or relationship with God. I am guilty of putting Him aside until I need Him. making Him convenient. I am guilty of sin. I have been in denial about my daughter - she is strong-willed and I have let her control me - I gotta get that under control. I am guilty of letting things go unsaid in my marriage - he has NO idea. I am guilty of trying to "be" something I am not.
So here it is - I have a lot of work to do. I have to continue to draw near to Him to overcome.